Today, Javier turns 3 months!
I still recall the very moment he was delivered at Mt E Novena on 4th May 2014, the first moments when our eyes first met. He was being 'thrown' onto my body by the gynae after he was being cleaned up. Such a tiny fellow. My feelings then - I felt so so so relieved & blessed that he is a healthy baby, I remembered myself checking out his eyes, his tiny nose, mouth and ears. I am unable to describe the feeling but it is so amazing. Amazing how this tiny one is formed, renting a 39 weeks stay in my womb.
When I was expecting, the mummies would all tell me that they miss the feeling of the baby in the womb and told me to enjoy my pregnancy journey. Now I do understand how they feel as I look upon those preggies who are glowing with their babies in their womb. I do miss him kicking inside. These were the 'last' preggie pics of me when I was close to 39 weeks! Couple of days before Javier chose to kick the waterbag and arrived.
#throwback #39 weeks
This phrase aptly described what I felt in the delivery room. As a first time mum, one can't help but feel nervous and somewhat fearful about motherhood! - the entire pregnancy, delivery & how to be responsible for another life! The courage to deliver him without epidural was the immediate one - just focus on the end result & manage your mind/pain!
Motherhood is indeed tougher than working. Mothers are selfless and always put her child ahead of her own interest.
Some of my thoughts on motherhood and its sacrifices:
1. One loses her figure as a new mum ( of course some are born with excellent DNA, otherwise one has to work really really hard to get back into shape ( but where do you find time to do so?)) :(
2. Breastfeeding is a tough journey, truly understated. ( Tougher when old folks will keep telling you to give water / formula ). The trick is to perservere, perservere and ignore negative comments! ). I can have a separate blog entry to document my journey [ when I find time to jot it down]
3. (Beauty) sleep is no longer available. You should be glad that you get to sleep. No more long stretches of sleep. If you get 2-3 hours in a stretch, it is an added bonus. ( of course I am told that it gets better as the baby grows ).
4. First month is the most stressful period. New to everything - breastfeeding, confinement, bathing baby, changing diapers, burping, sterilising, etc etc etc
5. One has to be absolutely calm & patient to deal with uncontrollable screams of babies
6. One has to be very efficient & multitask, finding time to shower or poop is a challenge
7. One has to control and cannot shout when angry
8. One has to think very hard between returning to work or being a SAHM. ( of course ultimately we have to return to work but when? )
9. You end up singing nursery rhymes even when you are not with him as it becomes a habit sub-consciously ( e.g. in the shower or when he is crying from far )
10. There are good days & bad days. You just need to remind yourself of the good days when the boy screams non stop. Keep calm and carry on.
**of course the above may not apply to every new mum but definitely what I am going through when I am alone at home since I shifted to my new place
I am not complaining. The above sacrifices melt away as you see your little one grow, smile, coo, learning motor skills, and many more first moments/milestone to come. :)
My little precious one has grown from a tiny baby weighing ~~2.87kg at birth to ~ 6kg. Oh how you have grown my precious little boy.
@4th May
@ 4th June
@4th July
@4th August
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